for him

i was once

in love with a boy

i was so in love

i couldn't see straight

there is never really

just one particular reason

to why you love someone

you just love them as a whole

be it the way his eyes

crinkle when he smiles

or how his skin glistens

when he's under the sun 

i was once

in love with a boy

i was so in love

my eyes would tear at the sight of his name

but somehow

 i grew tired of waiting

and wanting

 

i realised that sometimes

your heart needs to break a little 

so you can truly know

the meaning of joy

and i know loving him

had wrecked

and ripped all that was 

left of my heart 

but now

i know that my suffering,

it wasn't all in vain

AA